Why Do I feel Like This?

So we have started working on revising techniques. This is great and I'm really excited to go through my work and pick things apart. I'm also excited to help others with their work or give them ideas. I think working together to become better is the best way to become proficient at something. Back to my main point. When we were told to try the new revising technique on our own poem, I found myself not able to interrupt what I have already written. At least it feel like interrupting to me. I feel like to change a sentence or phrase around is destroying what I have already put down on the paper (screen). I didn't know what to do so I just rewrote my poem using different words, technically meaning the same thing it doesn't resemble the first at all. I think this is really running away from the revising technique, but it pains me to want to change to much of a poem. I feel like almost everything I write with feeling is almost perfect the way it comes out. I always do a minor revision going through making sure everything flows, often adding punctuation after it's written. Really it is really frustrating that I can't bring myself to change one phrase and be happy. It's hard to explain the feeling of destroying your own art piece. It may not be great to anyone else, but to me it means something and that's the way I like it. Ordinary or not. I guess, I will have to put my distress at bay and just deal with it.

Clayton